Walking Into Knowingness

In honor of the upcoming new year I have been contemplating my life intention, direction, and challenges/opportunities. This morning I realized I am at a crossroad in my life. It is time to love the person I have been and time to embrace a higher version of myself.

I used a simple method of looking at my complaints and compliments that I expressed about others. In this indirect way I was able to see myself being objective and thorough. I know that I am all that I see in others whether I am complaining or complimenting.

Here is what I found I was complaining about in others. Then I changed their names to "I am..."

• a very sexually attractive person who feels a false sense of reassurance and self worth through displaying self in a sexy/ flirtatious manner.
• experiencing periods of attachment & insecurity
• frozen in fear & not taking action
• not claiming the life I know I deserve (self worth)
• inefficient use of time & talents
• wavering focus & direction
• too stuck in the head that I get locked in intelligence/reason mode that is squeezing the magic out from happening or allowing
• unlimited potential and the world unfolding before me, realizing I could have a commanding presence & really impact lives if I owned it.
• wavering on taking responsibility on where I am at.
• experiencing minor glimpses of lower levels of consciousness, yet highly evolved getting glimpses of a higher truth/ reality.
• understanding freedom & enlightenment
• passionate about growing, sharing and teaching as I learn
• a person with a huge heart
• a person with a desire to make a positive difference in people's lives on a large scale

I then thought about the people in my life that I admire. I took off the names of others and changed it again to "I am...."

• present, conscious, self assured
• understanding & remembering my life direction
• knowing my presence is my gift
• a leader
• serving by holding my level of awareness. In doing so people find clarity in their own lives and raise their own consciousness so that they see solutions & change their own lives.
• the very best thing I can do is maintain this state of knowing consciousness & live in that truth.

This is my direction to master! I am reminded of the last phrase in Mother Teresa's poem "Anyway" where it states:

"In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway."

I see myself very clearly right now and I am so thankful that through observing and enjoying my interactions with everything around me and that I am able to see the truth in my reality.

The people I am complaining about are opportunities to see if I am really done with that level of life. Have I really let go from the old to walk into new realms? How assured am I?

The people I admire are opportunities to see if I am really standing present and owning it simply, quietly, consciously with a knowing and freedom.

Am I ready to take the torch from my lower self and stand tall with a higher level of living. Can I incorporate it and saturate myself with such a presence that it emanates from every pore & action of my being?

Are you ready to stand in your knowingness or do you need to dabble in the "old familiar". Are you ready to let go to move forward?

What more of a resolution do you need than to walk in your own truth? Enjoy your new year!

#10 Bikini Body Challenge Update 124.5 Weigh In

My Weekly Grocery Shopping Experience

If it wasn't for the IEOPBC I doubt I would be consuming as much organic produce as I do. Even better I get it wholesale. I co-organize this group & I strongly feel that in order to stay on a healthy lifestyle you need to put yourself in situations where you are accountable. In my situation people count on me so I can't exactly let them down. It's a win win situation for me.

This produce is enough to feed myself, Alex & Mehgan who also eat the same foods I prepare.



Groceries
30 red potatoes
3-4 bunches of kale
3-4 heads of red leaf lettuce
3-4 heads of celery
3-4 fennel bulbs
3-4 bunches of carrots
3-4 bunches of golden beets
6+ zucchini
3 bags of mixed peppers
3 bags of spinach PLUS a half case which is 12 bunches
5 lbs of tomatoes ( forgot to video tape them)
12 golden delicious apples
12 persimmons
16 lbs of grapes
40-50 Fuji apples ( I know I said Gala in the video, but I meant to say Fuji)
20 bananas (normally I get about 50, but I had many left over from last week)
12 cloves of garlic ( this will last much longer than this week)
2 pineapples
3 pkgs of sunflower spouts

This total cost was approx: $100 Now tell me where you are going to beat that price?

This week's menu

(some of the ingredients I still had in my fridge from last week)

Breakfast

Green Juice
Romaine (1 head), cucumber (1), spinach (1 head), ginger (thumb sized chunk), apple (2), cilantro ( 1 bunch), parsley (1 bunch), & celery (3-5 stalks). I plan on juicing the greens to the carrot tops and beet tops also.

This is taking up 80% of my daily dietary intake for this week. I am drinking at least 48 oz if not more daily. I just feel like I need more re-mineralization for healing emotionally as well as physically. Juice usually clears my mind and creates a sense of calm and focus. I can totally use more of that these days! If I make too much in one sitting my kids help me drink it. I try to consume it within 15 minutes of juicing.

Green Smoothie
Banana and greens ( this week I have romaine, red leaf, spinach, & kale) I may throw in pears, mango, or pineapple as well, but sometimes it's just leafy greens with banana.

Snacks
Apples, persimmons, bananas, and grapes (my kids like almond butter w/ the apples & bananas) Guacamole or zucchini hummus w/ carrots

Lunches & Dinners
Steamed Red Potatoes & Broccoli (left over from last week)
Massaged greens w/ sprouts, grated beets and zucchini hummus
Warm Veggie Soup- carrots, celery, onions, potatoes, zucchini, tomatoes, peppers, fennel, and garlic

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-Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

Welcome Kevin Talley & Juicing

Here is a quick video of Kevin & I talking about how he has been feeling as a result of cleaning up his diet and experimenting with juicing. Raw food is a new concept to Kevin and I am amazed by his openness and willingness. Since Kevin is very interested in raising consciousness I shared with him some information about the energetic value of food. He was fascinated to learn how diet affects his vibration. I look forward to sharing more videos on his transition and journey.

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